So I came to an interesting realization this morning. I'm at work, and I wanted to eat an apple, and I actually found a knife (for which I expressed my surprise--especially for finding a knife at the Help Desk, where many people would be inclined to actually use it, for purposes other than cutting food--what can I say? There's just a vibe here, you can't help it). Anyways, Michelle just kinda looks at me and says, "You used to have braces didn't you." And I was like"....Yeah? What makes you say that?" thinking this question just came out of nowhere. "You're in the habit of cutting your fruit, cause you were looking for a knife."

I wish I could be that observant. Sometimes (okay, alot of the times) I'm just completely oblivious to things on the surface like that. I also took a humanmetrics test today, which told me I am an INFP. Which means nothing to you, unless I decide to tell you what the abbreviation means. Which I suppose I could, it's harmless information. But it would be more fun not saying what it is. Until you go look it up on your own, from the burning curiosity created by me holding it back from you. Only then, you'd have the results and discover that its really not as exciting as you thought it would be and this game would just make no sense.

Anyways, according to this test, I am a Healer Idealist: INFP standing for Introverted Intuitive Feeling Perceiving. Although mine was more inFP as I'll have nyou know introverted and intuitive were only about %10, with Feeling being 50% and Percieving %40.

Healer Idealists are abstract in thought and speech, cooperative in striving for their ends, and informative and introverted in their interpersonal relations. Healer present a seemingly tranquil, and noticiably pleasant face to the world, and though to all appearances they might seem reserved, and even shy, on the inside they are anything but reserved, having a capacity for caring not always found in other types. They care deeply-indeed, passionately-about a few special persons or a favorite cause, and their fervent aim is to bring peace and integrity to their loved ones and the world.

Healers have a profound sense of idealism derived from a strong personal morality, and they conceive of the world as an ethical, honorable place. Indeed, to understand Healers, we must understand their idealism as almost boundless and selfless, inspiring them to make extraordinary sacrifices for someone or something they believe in. Healers are found in only 1 percent of the general population, although, at times, their idealism leaves them feeling even more isolated from the rest of humanity.

Healers seek unity in their lives, unity of body and mind, emotions and intellect, perhaps because they are likely to have a sense of inner division threaded through their lives, which comes from their often unhappy childhood. Wishing to please their parents and siblings, but not knowing quite how to do it, they try to hide their differences, believing they are bad to be so fanciful, so unlike their more solid brothers and sisters. They wonder, some of them for the rest of their lives, whether they are OK. They are quite OK, just different from the rest of their family; swans reared in a family of ducks. Even so, to realize and really believe this is not easy for them.

INFPs never seem to lose their sense of wonder. One might say they see life through rose-colored glasses. Their extreme depth of feeling is often hidden, even from themselves, until circumstances evoke an impassioned response. Of course, not all of life is rosy, and INFPs are not exempt from the same disappointments and frustrations common to humanity. As INTPs tend to have a sense of failed competence, INFPs struggle with the issue of their own ethical perfection, e.g., performance of duty for the greater cause. Some INFPs have a gift for taking technical information and putting it into layman's terms.

Sensing is introverted and often invisible. This stealth function in the third position gives INFPs a natural inclination toward absent- mindedness and other-worldliness. The INFP may turn to inferior extraverted Thinking for help in focusing on externals and for closure. INFPs can even masquerade in their ESTJ business suit, but not without expending considerable energy.


I definitely believe in the absent-mindedness part. And I think I got that whole idealism/rose colored glasses issue, haha. I think my favorite part though is that it called me an ugly duckling essentially, and that it said I care passionately about a few special persons/things. Which I think helps explain all the little obsessions I have over things. Like Mary Poppins...or REBA!

Speaking of!! Last night Sam and I went to the library on the way back from supper to see if there were any good movies that we wanted to watch, and I have no idea how I saw it or why it was there, but suddenly I think I see letters spelling one of my favorite names (or rather name of one my favorite people) and I just yell "REBA!!!" Which was preceded by "Holy Shit!" when I realized it actually did say Reba, and was only even less appropriate than yelling country superstars names out loud in a library. It was this VHS of Reba: In Concert...so you know I checked that out. I can't wait to watch it tonight when I get back from work. On the back cover one of the songs listed that she performs is "Sweet Dreams". Are you kidding me?! Reba! Singing Sweet Dreams!!? I LOVE IT!!

We didn't watch it last night cause we watched "I Know What You Did Last Summer" (Sam had never seen it before...how sad. At least from my p.o.v. as someone in love with 90s pop culture) and then the entire first season of The Simple Life. I just had to check it out after having mine stolen, and missing it so much this summer.

It was fun though, even though I got to bed after 2:00am, and had to get up for work this morning. My boss just left (literally) and is headed for Canada, so really I am now free to do whatever I want. Though I highly doubt I'd ever be able to sleep on the job. It's okay, I'll deal with it.

And do you know why? Because Borat is out in theaters today.

I don't think that's really the reason, but it just came to mind, and is good enough for me. I can't wait to see it. Maybe I'll go see that tonight. I really want to go with Abby, but she's not supposed to see it without Nick, her boyfriend (who could've been a dead ringer for Borat on Halloween, if he'd not had to cut his hair for his play, and could've grown his crazy mustache back.

Just for visuals, since he's hilarious, here's clean cut "Look-at-me, I'm-the-lead-in-a-play-about-a-crazy-murderous-writer-Nick"



and here's crazy (which would be 'normal') Nick:




Doesn't that seem like he has Borat quality? Mainly cause the hair and mustache, but put him in a grey suit with a skinny tie, and I think he'd do. Anyway, I'll probably go see the movie this weekend anyways. It would just be more fun with Abby there.

Now I don't know what to blog about, cause I feel potentially creepy for posting photos of Abby's boyfriend in my blog...hmmm, woops.

Now I'm suddenly having a complex because I don't remember which spelling of 'grey'/'gray' is the U.S. spelling. I kept changing it in the sentence above, and I still don't know. Dammit, and Microsoft Word doesn't underline either with red for wrong. Aghhh! This is driving me insane.

Although I just looked at the clock and feel like I've sufficiently wasted about an hour at work. Part of which typing this ridiculously long blog post. Actually I don't know yet whether its ridiculously long, because I'm still typing it, and haven't seen it in full form yet.

But I can, if I just end it now, and click "Publish Post". But am I ready for that?

.......................I guess so.

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