It's strange.

Those moments when you are consciously aware of the different paths layed out in front of you that control which direction your life will take.

A lot of times you just do what you do, and the outcome is whatever the outcome is. I mean, in the back of your mind you know that the decisions you make shape your world.

But the big'ns...those are the ones that, although you might not see coming, you take pause for. You stop. Consider where each road might lead you. Decide whether those are journeys you want to go on, and if they will ultimately lead you to a destination you'll be happy with. And you move forward.

Sometimes looking back. Sometimes not.

Sometimes the answers are clear. Sometimes they're not.

Right now I am at a crossroads.

I have no idea what lies ahead of me should I remain on the path I'm currently following, nor can I predict what results lie ahead should I decide that now is the time to veer off.

For me, sometimes the not knowing is what gives me the extra push. The adrenaline rush that comes from taking risks, and trying to satisfy my craving for new experiences.

I admit I'm scared.

But in the past, when I've felt the scared in the way that I do about this decision, that's when I realized those where things I should do. Opportunities to seize.

Closing doors is what causes regrets. I've yet to regret any off the times in my life I've jumped off cliffs. (Okay maybe that whole taking pictures on the rocks in Ireland, but makes a good story now, so it's gained it's worth over time).

The worst that could happen is that it would be a learning experience, from which I would learn and move on. Or move back, haha.

Am I ready for another drastic change in scenery?

"What makes humans human is precisely that they do not know the future. That is why they do the fateful and amusing things they do: who can say how anything will turn out? Therein lies the only hope for redemption, discovery, and--let's be frank--fun, fun, fun!

There might be things people will get away with. And not just motel towels. There might be great illicit loves, enduring joy, faith-shaking accidents with farm machinery.

But you have to not know in order to see what stories your life’s efforts bring you. The mystery is all. "

Alice Munro- People Like That Are The Only People Here

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